3yrs Already Gone?

I didnt really hit me until early afternoon, I couldn't figure out why today didn't feel normal to me. I was cleaning my room and came across a red and yellow rose under my UK hat. The red rose was from my Grannies funeral and the yellow from my Dad's and I keep them on top of my dresser together always. As soon as I saw the yellow rose all I could think about was my Dad and how this day "Easter Sunday" was the last day or holiday I had seen my father alive. In 10 days my father will have been dead 3 years.....doesn't seem that long ago. I think about the great memories and 28 years we had together all the time but today all i could think about is that the last time we laughed together was Easter Sunday 2007. It was the 1st and Last holiday he got to spend with Treston and the last holiday he spent with Austin. I remember the family laughing at him holding Treston because he was making goofy faces and noises at him and Treston was laughing back and we all got a kick out of making jokes about how neither of them had teeth.
In part I am sad because our last words were not all that nice to each other the day after Easter and over something SO stupid. The other half is sad because I didn't get to say "I Love You". Since then I have made a rule with those I love, that they will always know I love them. Even if we are arguing I still make sure they know I love them because I dont ever want anyone I care about to think for one moment I didn't care for them. If I never see them again whether by distance or death I will have no regrets.
I have forgiven myself and moved on but everyone still has their moments when it just feels good to remember the sad things and cry and today seemed like a good day for me to remember the last time I saw my Dad smile and laugh his toothless mouth...lol.
I will always Love you and never forget you Daddy <3
I♥you Dad and miss you very much