Monday, July 7, 2008

Toxic

What is considered a toxic relationship? I'm not talking about just romantic relationship, ALL relationships. Why can someone not do anything about them? They know the relationship is bad for them but they don't change it or remove themselves from the situation. If someone in your life abuses you mentally or physically, obviously it's not a happy relationship. If your gonna be unhappy or miserable because someone treats you like shit why not just leave? Yes you will be unhappy but it's not like you were happy in the 1st place, plus you can eat your food without a straw cause they broke your jaw....for the 2nd time.
Let look at the emotionally abusive relationships. We all know emotional abuse is when someone puts you down, calls you names, belittles you, etc. What about our own emotional abuse. You act as though you are on top of the world yet inside it is massive dermoil. You know you control your destiny yet you don't take that control. You sit on your ass and allow things to slowly devour you because there is no one you trust that you can open up to, just to get it out. That I think is a form of abuse.
Everyday of my life I question actions of my own. What are the consequences? Who will it hurt? Doing something you know is wrong but you love doing it, so you think you can't stop because of your own selfishness. Like White Castle to a stoned guy at 3 a.m. You crave it even though it's not good for you, you over indulge and then think about how bad you feel later...lol.
There are somethings I will take control of, no questions asked, like I did when I quit smoking. But, there are something I question why I do them.