Things seem to never change and sometimes I think they never will. My mother is still the same ol' bitch that loves to use people until she needs them no longer, yes, including her own children and grandchildren. Fucking pathetic to live a life the way she does, in anger, regret and blame. Never does she take blame for her own actions it is always someone elses fault that she is the way she is. That is the main reason I work so hard everyday to break the circle this family is accustomed to. My kids will NEVER feel unloved, put down or worthless from me. The day that I call my child anything other than "awesome" is the day I don't deserve to have such wonderful kids.
As far as their father's I can not control their actions, I can only answer the questions asked by their son's. Austin's dad is about as worthless as they come. The type that no matter what isn't here for his only son, but is for his daughter. Would prefer to get laid or sell drugs over being a father. So now I just call him "the donor" because that is all he has ever done for me or Austin.
Treston's father is just as bad in his own way. He can't keep his dick in his pants, is a habitual liar, doesn't care who he hurts as long as his gets to cum. He's like a snake, he tries to wiggle his way back into our lives but it seems that it is more for trying to get into my pants than being with his son. I know he has lied to his wife to get out of the house to go get laid and put the kids off on her. I have so much proof of his actions behind his families backs that it is almost tempting to lay it in fron of his wife. Unfortunately I don't believe she cares as long as he comes home, and it's sad. As for me and Treston we don't want or need him in our lives and I refuse to let my child adapt those morals.
I wish I would have stopped DaShawn from being a once a year father to Austin, it would have saved alot of heartache and alot of questions for me to answer like, "Why doesn't my daddy love me?"
I believe that I am scared of the change but I am dead serious about taking the kids and moving very soon. Somewhere fresh where we can start all over with no negativity to bring us down.